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Meditation Chapter: Exodus 2

Have you ever been stuck on autopilot while getting things done around the house? You feel out of it but you would swear that you’re fine. I definitely have been there and you are not alone in this. Trauma can cause dissociation which means feeling like being detached from yourself and from personal experiences in life.

When I started my journey with God a little over a year ago.. I’m not going to lie. I didn’t think I would have to face trauma, anger, resentment, and bitterness that consumed my identity. God’s perspective of me is nowhere near the things I have identified myself with. I guess, I did underestimate God…didn’t I?

When we are wrapped up in the pain or the trauma we are a present to the enemy. Personally speaking, I believe that the enemy would love for God’s children to misidentify themselves as victim, abuser, worthless, and unredeemable. The truth is that God is a Redeemer, Healer, Restorer and I like to say the greatest chess player of all time. God loves us so much that he bought us with the blood of Jesus, so we could be restored and made new in Christ Jesus.

Recently, I have learned that I would shut off my thoughts, feelings, and motivations which caused me to miss opportunities to make better memories. For example, my son’s birth, my wedding, and any of my son’s birthday parties, I don’t remember due to the practiced habit of blocking out the stress or anything that reminded me of feeling unsafe. I went through the motions, but wasn’t enjoying the moments. Meditating on the offenses of others can blind us to opportunities of God trying to speak to us.

I have found that God has a purpose for our pains which turn into our testimony when we let go and heal (not when we ignore the trauma). My emotions are valid but they are not logic, reason, or even faith. They are a part of my acknowledging, accepting, and understanding parts of life. The misconception of walking with Christ is that this walk is easy but facing things you’ve been storing in the deep parts of your heart is part of the hard part.

My goal is to encourage you to get into your bible and learn God’s character because he is a great father, tour guide, and friend. We can not view him as a flawed human being who is bound to make some mistakes along the way..

Bible Time

Let’s explore the scripture together. I encourage you to go read for yourself the story of Moses in Exodus 2.

In Today’s reading we will examine how Moses was born into chaos (You know..The Pharaoh killing all the Jewish boys to slow down the population of the Israelites), Moses thinking that he was doing something good in the eyes of others, ended up being mocked and rejected. I have definitely been rejected and talked about before, I can only imagine how he felt. 

For context, the Phraroh during that time was attempting to slow down the population of the Israelites. Due to God’s faithfulness the population continued to grow then Moses was born to this amazing and quick-thinking mom who decided to push Moses up the Nile River for protection from the Pharaoh (v.3). He was found by the Pharaoh’s daughter, who wanted to adopt him, by God’s divine plan(v.6). Moses’ sister was there, and she offered to get a Hebrew woman to help aid in caring for the child. Moses’ sister, being a dope big sister, goes to get Moses’ mom for the princess to help raise the child (v.7-10). Moses was raised in the Pharaoh’s Palace but knew his ethnicity and culture from his people.

'Many years later, when Moses had grown up (approx. 40 years old) he went out to visit his own people, the Israelites, and he saw how hard they were forced to work. During his visit, he saw an Egyptian beating one of his fellow Hebrews. 'Exodus 2:11 NLT

Moses saw and sympathized with his people when the Egyptians were abusing them. He witnessed his people fighting against each other. Moses tried to defend them against the Egyptians and themselves, and he was called out for standing up for them (they thought Moses trying to show off his power and position) (v. 12- 15).

Since Moses was afraid of being killed by Pharaoh for this crime, he fled to a land called Midian. While there, Moses defended the daughters of a priest from the other shepherds and completed the task of getting water for the flock (v. 16-17). When the girls returned to their father and told him what had happened, their father wanted to invite Moses to come and eat with them(v.20-21). Moses married a woman named Zipporah (Zih-POWR-ah) and had a son named Gershom (GREH-SHAAM)(v.22). Years later, Pharaoh died and the Israelites were still crying out and groaning (v.23). Their prayer lifted to God and he was reminded of the covenant promise to his people, God knew it was time to act (v. 24-25).

You can also find this in Acts 7:23-34 from Stephen Account

More resources: Spoken Gospel Exodus 1-2

Notable Parallel

I really want you to grasp the concept we are not as different from the people in the bible. There is someone who dealt with rejection like our boy Moses or self-image like Sarah or infertility like Hannah or doubt like Moses as well ( it’s later in his testimony). The Bible is full of regular humans who deal with human emotions like me and you.

Moses’ ethnicity was Hebrew but grew up Egyptian. He was not accepted into his natural community due to his upbringing in the Pharaoh’s palace. Moses could’ve meditated on the fact that his mom gave him up, how she didn’t fight for him, or how the Israelites didn’t accept him. Moses could’ve blamed God for all those things, but He didn’t. God was calling him out of a place of familiarity and comfort so God could miraculously meet him. When we his people take time to step out on faith to heal and face those uncomfortable things God is always going to show up because he is forever faithful, Today, Tomorrow, and Forever.

Prayer & Journal

Prayer inspired by Psalms 141

As we come to a close here is a prayer to open your heart for the Holy Spirit to start to heal and show himself through you.

“Lord, God I am thankful for your faithfulness and your refuge. I cry out for help to heal my broken heart and groaning soul, and I ask that you come near. I know I am not alone or forgotten, but treasured and loved by you, Lord. Holy Spirit show me the things I need to let go of and forgive, Teach me God. Let your correction be quickened and humbling as an amazing and just Father that you are. I pray this in Jesus’ Name……AMEN“

As you go through the next week, take your time and walk through these journaling questions to explore those things that you are holding on to.

Here Take This With You:

1.) Maintain God’s Perspective of Yourself, People, and the Situation.

2.) Our Emotions are valid but they are NOT our decision-makers.

3.) God is going to remain faithful throughout Our Stories because He loves us.

4.) Everything is subject to change when God is in the Midst.

Always remember We have the Victory in God, I pray that this reading has blessed you and I hope to see you next time !!!